2013 coming to an end...Shall think back before letting it go...

31 December 2013.. today.. marks the end of  2013... So Fast.. remember when i was sec 1 , i went with my brother to my school to get my school books.. And today.. i ended my secondary school life... Within a blink of my eyes...So heres my story for 2013! :) HERE I GOOOOOOOOO!

I entered 2013 being secondary 4... I knew things were gonna be hard as 'N' levels were "finally" my turn. I knew i had to study hard. i knew i had to get a good score , get myself proud. And yes i mean MYSELF and not anybody.

The school term started with not what i wanted. i got the worst teacher which i thought was the worst. i got myself a biology teacher which i cant understand.. i got myself a math teacher who simply discourages us.. i was pretty upset as both of this subject was always my worst... I accepted the fact very soon...

As things started to get more serious and of coz , n level is nearing ... i started to see changes within people.. People who once use to be the most mischievous actually started getting very serious. You see what i mean , they are always the "most" and the "very". Same , i accepted the fact very soon...

For me , things got worst... Study were hard but i am trying my best... i got myself into tuition. I got a tutor who is fine to me and really helped alot... But well.. finance was a problem.. But yet my dad never fails to allow me to continue tuition. Thanks dad! <3.

Soon, i took my o level chinese.. And also soon , it was june , i got my result. I got B4. Not what i wanted but near. Still i wasent satisfied. I wanted B3. I got a chance to retake but i got myself into a dilimia. Should i? or should i not? is it gonna be possible.. can i cope with studies? In the end , i was forced into a situation which i have to decided immediately. i decided not to. I just had to be satisfied with life and believe that i've done my best. And so i accepted the fact again and continued with life...

Friends... I have many friends but those who are close to me are less... And soon, those who are close to me seems to drift away from me a little.. i was upset.. but of cause i knew i had to buck up. N level was more important to me. And so i made a quote for myself . " Its either for them or for myself, either one". So i accepted that fact again that i have to live for myself. And life goes on...

Very soon , August came. Which means , N level is just in a few weeks time... My school had evening academy started. Means staying in school till 8 to study. I chosed to go. It really helps. Firstly , i get to study silently... Secondly , i get to have help from teachers for FREE! Thirdly.. i get to bond with my friends... My studies improved alot. Alot alot... I was a little more confident of n levels now.

And so N level came very soon... Not even with a blink of my eyes... I took it. i was afraid.. very afraid.. but i knew i had to do it and its now or never. And soon .. i ended it... HOLIDAYS HERE!

However i was worried still.. for my results.. which comes during 19 december... Meanwhile.. I went to work.. Things were not as good as i thought but im fine...

2013 was the worst birthday i had i guess. Things were bad on that day. my dad scolded me and i cried.. Because of some household matters anyway. i get it go n live on...

But just so soon later... 19 december is here. And i took my results... i was not sure to be happy or sad or what . but i told myself , ive done my besst. and afterall its not as bad as i thought! I got myself 15 points and i manage to go wither sec 5 , nitec or higher nitec. i chosed higher nitec!. But i am still waiting for the result on whether i can go to the course i wan :D

So well. Thats it. today is 31 dec 2013. My resolutions for 2014 shall be simple. Live a better life , do everything to the best i can. And hopefully everything goes well... :) and better of coz! :DDD

Alright.. ill end it here. its long enough post. haha! Ok... i shall end with a quoteeeee i made i guess... "Be happy , Be glad. Be contented , dont be greedy and the world will have peace :D " Here , I wish everyone a Happy New year and live goodluck in everything u do! do the best in everything! :D Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Long time...

Its been almost a year i haven posted.. yea .. i was busy.. got my n level going on and now ive got my result.. tomorrow , i will receive the result of whether i got into the course ive chosen , business information system.. hopefully i did.

oh btw.. Merry xmas everyone.. hope u guys had a blast.. i hope so.. haha.. well for me , its always alone.. my quote for xmas every year is simply , lonely xmas , xmas alone.. haha..

Soon, it will a brand new year , 2014.. i hope everything in life will sail smoothly for me as 2013 was a rough one.. one which many new n sudden things happen to me... im tired. 2014 , please give me a great 2014...

Alright.. ill end this post here.. not being sure when will be my next post.. Alright guys.. lastly.. merry xmas , and a happy new year.. bye :)

Merry belated Xmas everyone! :D How is your Christmas this year? Hope all of you have enjoyed! As for me , i stayed at home yest . xD No places and no idea where to go.But well , i went to malaysia a few days ago as my relatives all leave there and a really mini christmas party. BBQ , Gifts exchange and chatting here and there. Really awesome relatives . haha!

Do u know that we are alive? :O We never die!  The mayans said they counted wrongly... change to 2015.. hmm... Lets see! Whether if we die. I shall move to outer space now. It seems more safe there.

2013 is coming .. What are your plans? I think.. i do have alot as it would be a year where i take my N level which is going to determine whether i go to secondary 5 and continue with O level or fail my N level and go to ITE. I still cannot decide whether to do it or not should i continue with my O level... If i were to pass my N level and fail my O level , that means i wasted another year . and NO i am not going to ever think of retaining. Thats how it goes..

2013 is going to be a year where i start losing friends after my N level.. As we will be seperate.. i dare not think about it.. my friends my memories... But before all that , i am going to work hard and strive for N level no matter what.. Getting the best out of best even though its not a very high chance . If i dont dream it , i cant get it. I am going to try my best in all subject.. Becoming thick skin to pester my friends just to understand and whatever i can do to understand! Ha!

This is going to be my last post before 2013 come. Hope all of u enjoyed my blog this year. might to blogging lesser due to studies and some reason... Well the next 2 photo for enjoyment! The watermelon i carve and the home made sushi . These are things i did this 2 days...

                                                          Cute ? HAHA! 

Alright . i am going to end this post here. Good luck and have a great year ahead everyone! Strike for what you want and not wait :) There will be 2 quotes today as the year is coming to an end Here is the 1st quote for today : You’ll never leave where you are until you decide where you want to be.         And the Second quote is :Stop living within the limitations of what people think of you and never look back! :D

2012 Last? Or Second last? :)

Hey guys! How is it going? Christmas is coming and i hope all of you had a great holiday? With many amazing stories ! Hahas! This holiday was a quick one. 2 months? Like 2 week...  But well , i did not go on any trip nor had much fun. All i did was going back to school for band if not stay at home use computer , play with my dog.. hmmm Nothing much. I Want to start with my homework as its my N level art paper... But... No mood , no feel ... andddd just dont feel like doing it. I have 3 more weeks. I gotta start soon....

Yes! Holidays... I spend 1 week of my december in band practices and its intense... ONE WHOLE WEEK. But well .. Was quite fun at times but at the same time horrible moments too. So Should i start with fun or horrible moments? Alright! i shall start with fun moments! The fun moments are when my section tutor was not here and we had sectionals. Epic Sectionals . First we went out , seat on the bench and started practising... After awhile .. I demand for a break . A 5 mins break. So off we went for the break and never came back! Okay we did... We went to have a drink get a candy and went back .. Got no more mood for practising so we went off talking , gossiping , laughing , joking about the tiniest random joke. Laughing as a section like some crazy people as if we escaped from Metal hosp. Laughing about the lizard tail that someone step on , Hairstyle of each other , running around without reason , Going to the water cooler as a section together and went back to our instrument with FAIL. I was not able to climb up the stair as they made me laugh and i couldn't move! And there goes my SL Talking The most random stuff and i cant stop laughing... ALright Alright! Enough of this! Too long! Heres a photo. That Sl bought for himself this mini instrument! No Fair! i want it too!

Now as promised .. For the horrible moments... Most Most Horrible... Was when my section tutor was here... He .. The one i hate alot... From the first day i saw him! i hate him untill now! And now , he is making me hate him even morE! Suckish person! Was shooting me from the start of first lesson. i take it with a smile but the last one was bad ... he scolded me infront of my whole section . insult me , complain about me, everything! Still can joke with me after that! i dont find it funny at all! Dont know me still talking things u dont know about mee and u assume ! Stop assuming! RAWRRRR Ok dont care him!

This year have been a really tough year for me... Every Month Getting Worse .. Really hope that 2013 would be better! Much better .. Plus i also hope my N level will pass . Going on O Levels and Poly! Thats my Dream my goal but keep saying i cant. Must start to say i can i guess! Hahas. All the best for all your studies too hahas

Alright! I Shall end here. If possible i hope i can and have the mood to post 1 last post before 2012 otherwise this will be the last. We Shall see! All the best and Happy holidays! Enjoy your last but not least month of holidays! And today's quote is : If you are lucky enough to find a way of life you love, you have to find the courage to live it.  

Hey!

Hey peeps! i am back after a long long timeeeee ! haha! not very long just near to a month! x) Holidays are here and yes , it gets bored easily and i went for a job. Working and selling Dog's bakery? Sounds fun? Hahas when there is business thn the fun starts! :D

Yes , recently i have also been doing some knitting . Simple once. Have knit some weird weird stuff and should be knitting when i am bored or just out of a sudden? i dunnoe. So yes! here is a photo for u to enjoy

                    This is my first succeeded knitting piece. Its kind of a bracelet? Hope it looks ok?

I am someone who thinks alot. So .. Recently i been thinking too much due to free time alone. Realising myself is actually a person who waits too much for people.. Regardless of anything .. That sure include waiting for my late friend ( not trying to scold u ppl) But sure when i wait , it dont make me angry like some who Scold n nag alot after that . Should i change ? To stop waiting? I always been waiting for someone who can give me advice . Regardless of anything i wait , Thats me....

I haven been feeling good recently as many things happen. My mother. She once again have the intention to give out heihei again. It really breaks my heart when i hear it. I just gotta ignore? Well .. I got this feeling she is using it to threaten me , to scare me. i really hate it. Would she like it if i do the same to her? ... She is trying to say that Because its a dog thats why when it have skin prob we can dont want him. Well its a life too? What if i say in the future that u have sickness so i can throw u away? Is this what you are trying to teach me? And that when a dog is old we can kill it by injecting it to death? Did the dog say he or she wants? So once again are u teaching me that once you are old i can inject u with the same thing without caring about what you think? Seriously.. Think about it.

Another thing was quite ... I dunnoe. Just really some people irritates me. I mean i dont have the thought of saying anything regarding other religion . Just why must you go to the shopping center and find some stranger , persuade them or perhaps forcing? I dunnoe. i said forcing because in the end u said "ok i dont want to force you alr" I am not gonna state what religion as i know its gonna offence many people so yea. Many said [ Becoming "one" will make you go to heaven ] So my question to you is " Comfirm i will go? " AND Do u mean being my current religion wont have a chance to go ? or little chance? . You ask me whether is it because my parents are being superstitious? I am not trying to defence my parents or anything but i got to admit they are quite superstitious . But again , my question to you is " You mean by doing this in a shopping centre you are not being even more superstitious than anyone else?"  This is not the first time i am facing this. Its already my 3-4th time . 1 Time alr wasted my 1 hour... Once again i am not trying to say anything.

Well , i am ending it here . I will try to post more! :D Happy Holiday everyone! Since i haven been posting so long , i shall Give 2 quote today for make up? hahas! So now , the make up quote is : The moment when you’re laughing so hard, no noise comes out, and you sit there clapping like a seal.  (Ps: Thats me) And today's Quote is : Too many girls rush into relationships because of the fear of being single, then start making compromises, and losing their identity. Don’t do that.  (PS: Girls , Dont be that :) ) BYEEEEE

Stress? Confused? Afraid?...

Hey guys . Recently , i got back my papers... Really scary that even after a week , i am still feeling very worried. Worrying about if i will retain.. I have a very high chance to retain as i only pass my english currently and the criteria to get promoted up to secondary 4 is to pass english and 2 other subject or 4 other subject if you fail english. Worrying and feeling afraid have made me able to cry whenever i think about it...

Well , i got english at border line , chinese failing by 3 marks , the rest are 30+ or even 20+... I NEVER  thought that i would get such a low marks as i really had confident that i would pass my chinese , biology and geography. But i dint. i failed horribly... Really hope that i can be promoted . But... one of my teacher made me have extreme worries and extreme worry by asking my my marks and saying " are u prepared for retaining ?" Of cause i would say NO! but after that he said " Better be prepared" with the very serious look... What should i do now... other than feeling afraid which i really don't like the feeling but i just cant control it. Exams are over , nothing else i can do.

Yup, so yesterday , i went to kbox . Singing and laughing . i ordered this really special drink which i thought it was special called " berry sweetheart" When it came , it look so nice , so beautiful colour. Thinking it should be nice. So i took a photo of it before i drank and it was beyond nice! Its totally awesome! next time i am going to order this everytime i go! :D

Yea the drink i ordered"berry sweetheart"

okay! Just gonna end this post for now . Good luck for your exams and result  :) today's quote is :When you judge me without knowing me, you do not define me, you define yourself

I'm back! :D

Hey! Its been long since i blog! Sorry about it as i was busy studying , having my exams and yes , it is OVER! I can never i have finish my secondary 3 life! Omg? i finished it?! How did i even... O_O ! Time is running so fast! As for my Exams , i think i did my Extreme best in the first few paper but.. as for the last 3 paper which is my math , chem and art , i SCREWED IT! My math is horrrible! Chem too and art , at least screwed half of my art! Well , but what can i do now , worrying is of no use at all cause we cant change anything so now i am waiting for my results to get my statement! Just kidding ! but yes , i am getting my results to see if i can go sec 4 or retain! Hopefully i don't retain! :D

During 8-9 oct , i am having my marking days so i don't need to go to school! I went for a movie called "THE POSSESSION " a so called horror movie. IT was really trilling and nice but somehow beside us there is this 2 guys who is around 17-18 at age? Was scared and covered their WHOLE FACE  throughout a little of screaming this and that and of cause the part where the ghost/spirit came out. Its meant to be a scary show but me and my friend seems to be laughing at them ahahaha! However , there were some ruin-er who actually make funny sound when the movie started ! Really is very irritating. But Still a awesome movie hahas!


Holidays are coming soon! A little bit of  Planning which i am going to legoland malaysia soon! :D Excited! But imma will be going on cruise even before holiday starts! -skip school- ahahahha <<< ! Really is feeling very excited! :D wonder how is it! :DD

Hahas! i just write till here hope u enjoyed my post :D Today's quote is :Believe in yourself, and the rest will fall into place. Have faith in your own abilities, work hard, and there is nothing you cannot accomplish.