Break

Yes , its June holidays already and the week one of it is soon ending but this week , i have been going back to school for band practices and stuff . So now i am gonna have a 2 weeks break from now . 2 weeks, short yet long . what should i do? i am always wondering why i always have trouble finding what to do. Really bored. Going out is not a problem but the problem is that i am cash tight thanks to my friend for the past week been going out till late afternoons right after school but yea , its fun to be with her !
 
What i can do for this 2 weeks is sit infront of my computer and play and stare into the screen like nobody's business. And! its gonna be bored , real bored. All i can ask myself is what can i do over and over again non stop like some crazy nutcase? Just like what people always says , i will go into facebook click profile , new feed , profile and news feed again.

anyway , nothing much to say , just trying to keep this blog alive , today's quote is taken from one of my friend :   Lifes too short ,gonna live it long.  :)

Back and bad

BACK! Results are back and its bad... i remember saying in the last post that i have to accept the fact because i can't change anything and whining would not change anything. Its easy to say but hard to do . I did not whine but infact i was sad and depressed ... I cannot believe i just pass my english and because i just pass my english and it is important , i was afraid ... afriad that if anything goes wrong and i have to minus that few marks i will be doom. Untill the last second paper i cannot make it .... its was all fail and 2 subject even got single digit . Hoping that my last paper which is art would pass but very low chance of it. So  i went up to art room, worrying because it seems like its not well-ed done . I got back my art piece and i had a just pass , just just at the border line. I was so happy that i can pass and overall i passed! even though still feeling sad thanks to those single digit onces , but i manage to become the hyper me again , going to clementi , and many many places :)

There was once , not long ago , i was in a dilemma to whether stay in art or leave and go to food and nutrition . A good new perhaps , i am no longer in that dilemma! I have chose my path in secondary school to do art since
so young dint i? So since its a long term dream of my own and i have worked so hard just to get into art , why do i want to give up? Giving up is just like wasting the time i have spend to do art and work on it? My hard work would all be gone right? :D so i shall follow my own choice and work hard in art! :D Also , credits goes to my art work that i pass even though i just pass only hahas :)

Okay , enough of writing :) today's quote is :You have to hurt in order to know. Fall in order to grow. Lose in order to gain. Because most of life’s lessons are learned in pain. So, Live on! :D

No plans

Just like the last post , i said exam was over so i should be getting some plans to getting some fun but i have NON . why? cause during the exams i been going out almost everyday and it seems like its getting real bored,real real bored. But it seems like i have liked the way i live , sitting infront of the computer n play the whole day, you know , computer addict. 

Well, my school is quite good in a sense , giving us some post exam activities like hair styling and stuff .Looking forward to it but at the same time thinking that its school stuff so scoldings from teacher would be compulsory... But nevermind , i shall just take it as wind blowing in and out of my ears and than ENJOY! So, how about after school? i shall drag my friends out and than slack inside a fast food restraunt ,with a cup of drinks for hours :D chatting with them and even looking into blank together yea! Most importantly , we would not be doing any work as all ! 

Tomorrow , i would be getting my papers back and would be knowing my results . As i  said , we cant change anything so just accept the fact of the results and work harder next time :D STAY POSITIVE MAN! But i know , no matter how positive i am , there will be some results which i am not satisfied with because of carelessness . 

About a year more to go and i will get out of it , band . Yes , i like my school band because we have got an awesome conductor but it seems like the members in there are like so whatever ... I am not saying that they are bad or something but its just that in my own section , someone is finding faults with me and i really hate it. Long enough i have bear with what he said and bear with him treating us like dogs and maids . Its really enough... Can anyone tell me if i am wrong just by saying i cant go to the so called "meeting" with them just because i got art paper the next day and i have to prepare my preps board which is so much of the marks in my exam slip? Yes yes , i am wrong that i cant go but are you even wrong when i am not the only one who cant go and the only one who gets scolding by you , someone who dont even have the rights to scold me and you are just the same age as me just my section leader? Section leader , people say i have to respect them but how do i even respect them when they do not even respect me ? He did not even show that he is fit to be a section leader when we are practising and he is there playing with his friend laughing like some mad dog and than still can scold us that we did not practice ,at the same time laughing? I cant probably lie to myself saying that he is good because its too impossible ... I shall just BEAR with it for about a year more... 

Okay! After so much writing i realise i am somehow like writing an composition ! HAHA XD OKAY! the quote for today is : Dont judge someone when you only know his or her name! =D 

exams over...

yes , mid year 2012 is over , no point whinning over it cause we cant make any changes to it so just relax and wait for results... Hoping my result will be fine and at the same time , considering should i change from art to Food and nutrition... Its not that i lost interest in art but afraid that i would not be able to pass , able to cope. give me some ideas should i change anot...  So, Exam is over and i should be relaxing but yet i feel so stiffness in me.. i dunnoe why but it seems like i cant relax... any idea why?

Its been long since i went out with my friends with home clothes , slacking around the shopping center ... its been near 7 month.. Really feel like going out but got no idea how, whr and what i must be crazy.. Sometimes i really feel that life is getting boring cause its like wake up go sch come home sleep , everyday life? nothing fun ... ever got invited by ppl to go chatlet and parties but cant go , infact never attended ... i wanna go crazy and do whatever i can like nobody's problem and just go crazy but it seems like thats all only my imagination because what i do without school is sitting infront of my computer the whole day and i find it lifeless... yes , full of life in vitual world but total empty in real... Okay , so i hope no 1 lives a life like mine cause its so meaningless anyway , the quote for today is : Live life like its your last second .